Wednesday, 29 October 2008

Confused thoughts


Will you not,
look at me..
Will you not,
talk to me..
Will you not,
share your dreams..
Will you not,
entertain my likes..
Will you not,
outlook friendship..
Will you not,
turn a good way..
Will you not,
conquer anger..
Will you not,
win a life..
Will you not,
surprise me..
Will you not,
say I am beautiful..
Will you not,
hurt me never..
Will you not,
kiss my pains away..
Will you not,
understand my self..
Will you not,
feel what I feel..
Will you not,
hear my love..
Will you not,
like me..
Will you not,
love me..
Will you not,
hold me close..
Will you not,
marry me..
Will you not,
give us a life..

Will I not,
stop hoping..
Will I not,
let reality dawn..
Will I not,
see the truth..
Will I not,
opt for better..

I will not,
You will not,
Time will..

Heal the heart,
mend the mind..
Never the lest,
I love you,
my love...

Monday, 22 September 2008

Late-night scribbles

Some random scribbles that bubbled thorugh my mind late last night about lying and its implications.

A tiny little word,
for quick getaway.
Means of excuse,
to simplify answers

Easy to say,
worry sins away,
raises new questions
beside fear and contempt

Breaking down relations,
years of trust and belief.
One leads to another,
building a wall of deceit.

Doubt creeps the mind,
everything a question,
eyes cry out,
the "cheater" you were.

Complex becomes,
the simple way out,
yet ever so simple is,
the honest truth.

Saturday, 13 September 2008

Poetry and me

Sentiments are never attributed to me and my persona by majority of the people in my inner circle of friends.Other than streaks of smiles during cricket matches and excited screams in the college auditorium I am believed to be lacking in emotions (atleast the girly ones)

Quite on the contrary I am quite the opposite ( fact known by countable dearest buddies ). I am easily affected by words,images and sounds.A small good morning message is enough to make my day.Sight of caught-in-traffic ambulance brings in the tears.Anybody even humming Karthik's songs can cheer me up.

One more trait associated with me is Tamil communication skills or rather the lack of it.In the shortest time of acquaintance it gets questioned by one and all.I get pulled up for hailing from Tamil Nadu and being so lost in Tamil's eloquence.

I hereby declare that I do have a fondness for Tamil and its literature.It is quite not my fault that my vocabulary is found wanting.To prove all this here is a couplet that came tumbling to my mind as soon as I was straight out of bed, few days back.Honestly speaking I was quite taken aback to realize my first thoughts of the day tended to be in poetic and sentimental Tamil.

Un vizhi parvayil,
ennai maranthaen,
unnai unarthaen,
nammai arinthaen

On a more wider perspective I do write poetry on things that affect me.I write from fury at emotions I have bottled up.I write from expressions that are pent up inside me.They always end up either gloomy or philosophical and hence I have always held back from publishing them.Here is one for starters.Maybe I will be more forthcoming in the future...

Monday, 25 August 2008

First Review

One week since my dreaded review passed over.Well to be honest It was not bad as I expected.It could not have been better.Nothing eventful happened as I thought.

The fun started the minute I boarded Cheran Express on Sunday night.Four months back,what was a routine back-from-weekend trip meant so much to me.As usual the train seemed laden with my juniors,sub-juniors,seniors,super-seniors et al.Most of the journey went in catching up on old times(I could not believe I had been away for just four months).There was so much to talk and gossip about.

As we pulled into Coimbatore Junction all Softies headed off to hostel as one big group of noise-making devils.Entering into familiar domain(LH - Ladies Hostel) we were given a rousing welcome by everybody from Aunty stores' aunty to mess supervisor.We marched off to E-Block where our dear juniors were put up.With much mumbling, we dragged ourselves to Y-201 ( after a typical hurried mess idli breakfast).

Bored of the trying-to-act-attentive routine in Y-201 I made a hasty exit to hostel and took some respite in my favorite Aunty Stores' sappota juice.Most of Monday went off in slapping people backs(cordial welcome my style - Ashwin will post in more details) and pitching in with new happening gossip.For night stay me, Divya, Ramya, Somwya made our way to Jayashree's place.The journey to her house would take up an entry all by itself.

Like earlier times in hostel we spent time talking all at the same time alongside gobbling food.The next day morning was a blur of activity as all five struggled to get ready in decent time.Post breakfast we headed off to college.Back in college it was hang-your-ID-cards and hide-your-mobiles time(the rule Keerthi seemed to be totally oblivious of).

The morning session went off devoid of any major mishaps.Though CTS people got pulled up for repeating RDF and Semantic Web quite so often everybody agreed that they could not help but do so.

Post a slightly heavy lunch(compared to the sandwich and fruit routine at Blore) I started sleep-listening through the afternoon sessions(nothing quite new for me).I kept looking when at my watch.When would it reach that golden time of 3:30 when I would be due for my presentation.I was making some last minute changes and giving mock sessions with Keerthi as my unwilling audience.Presto it was 3:10 and Soundarajan had finished.Next in line was Niranjan and his guide(HOD) had shown no signs of arrival.

I decided this was going to be my lucky moment and I was about to start with my presentation instead of waiting for HOD to come.Our tutor gave the go-ahead and then walked in my worst fear.With his brisk walk and sinister smile he made me double over in apprehension.What if I am the unlucky person to get pulled up by him.What if he starts off on his line of questioning.Well guess I was doomed with numerous possibilities one worse than the other.

Luckily Niranjan's show was a short affair(not more than ten minutes). I made my walk to the podium.Wow,from my vantage position I could see the vast majority was deep asleep.I caught hold of my junior Mahesh who seemed all ears.I decided here is where I should focus and deliver.I started off talking about our organization and product in good amount of detail encouraged by Mahesh's frequent interested nods.At one point of time there appeared a yawn on his face.Then it dawned,have I been talking for quite long.As I was deciding whether it was time for the end, my tutor prompted to make it fast.Good I was not mistaken I have indeed been talking for quite long then.Quickly(not quick enough though as I went on for another five minutes) I drew my presentation to an end and out walked HOD.Great had I been talking long enough to bore him out of asking questions!!

Here and there two or three people asked some questions for curiosity sake and off I went back to being one among the audience.I rounded my friends for feedback.They bombarded and questioned the reason for such elaboration.I could not believe that I had gone on for about forty minutes though I knew I was certainly capable of it.

Immediately I was dragged back to hostel and I spent the rest of the evening catching up with my juniors and seniors.Ragging,Login,IVs all hit my ears at the same time!!

Amidst all this chit-chatting I packed stuff as off I went to Bangalore at night.As a huge gang of twelve people me and my classmates made our way back to coffee-laden-endless-intern-working-days-and-nights.

Friday, 22 August 2008

Independence Day Celebrations

One thing that slipped my memory and hence my blog was the supposedly Independence Day celebrations at office.The first time in Ver Se' Innovation everybody came together for something non-technical.All thanks to our new HR person who took efforts in decoration,refreshments and games.Not that organising it was such a big deal.The challenge lay in getting all the tech people to spare a day off from development.

And my part in this challenge was in draping a saree.Setting about to do something different few people decided to do some ethnic dressing.These people managed to convince the head into making it the order of the day.Without any bit of luck, I tried all sort of excuses to avoid this routine.I was forced to wear one for the celebrations shedding my usual comfy-formal attire.

Without much choice,I played all along and I did play quite well.We had some who-blows-the-biggest-balloon,most-candles-lit-in-a-minute and musical chairs for games.Quite unbelievably I won musical chairs!!

Rest of the celebrations was refreshments and some chit-chat about how we should do this kind of stuff more often(as if we have the time for it).Anyways it all ended on a nice note with my manager making the most of it and leaving early.This was the perfect excuse for me to make an early exit from office.

After all this I spent sometime in Forum for some last-minute shopping just in time to get caught in a endless(at least that is what it felt like) downpour.With some luck I got hold of a taxi just in time to pack and make a dash for the railway station.

My luck seemed to be at an end here as every auto-guy blatantly refused to drop me and my friend at the station.In the drizzling rain and bustling traffic we spent two hours in a cold-stuffy auto riding to Cantonment station shelling out 200 bucks.Must have some been good-natured soul to accommodate us at normal rates on a rainy,holiday weekend.

I had another one hour to throw around before my train would make an entry.I split it between sizing people around me and feeding some hungry dogs on the platform(much to my companion's disdain, I duteously served them an entire Little Hearts biscuits packet).

I caught hold of a few familiar faces here and there and said my due hi's and bye's after exchanging numbers.After some passage of time,presto here was my time.Time to start thinking of the nice weekend at home and of course review at college.

Wednesday, 13 August 2008

Review Time!!

I had taken a vacation from blogosphere due to my forever-tight work deadlines.I was stuck up in a vicious cycle of events where my work,academics and weekend plans got tangled up.

I have my first review (which was reflected in my status message as "Cheer up,the worst is yet to come!!")in college coming up on 18th and 19th alongside my work plans to make my changes live to public use.Contrary to my calculations my work did not make much of a progress and without completing my tasks I could neither intimate my manager about my review nor make the required review presentation.My college tutor also conveniently forgot to release the schedule for the review and hence I could finalize on my social plans for my two days at Coimbatore.

Finally after much reworking and thinking my mentor and myself agreed to approach the problem in a different way.I set up doing it and managed successfully up til this moment.With much apprehension I also informed my manager about the upcoming review and he agreed(unconvinced though of my need to take off on Monday and Tuesday).After much frantic coding I have got my tasks done.What remains to be done is get my code reviewed by my mentor and manager and convince them of the necessity of the rewiring and the hurdles I faced.

After all this technical discussions I have to go up to Forum for some last-minute shopping for relatives I missed out on my initial gift-getting spree.After that my most dreaded pre-travel routine,packing.I am quite bad at it and always end up taking home more than necessary.Wish I could master the art of travelling light.

But what is on my mind mostly now is my review.I am allocated the final slot on Tuesday which implies I would be privy to a sleepy-bored-uninterested audience.I also am blessed with the opportunity of having the Head of my department as a part of panel.I can be rest assured of some questions that are guaranteed to make one lose all sense of thinking.My HOD happens to have a knack to target the exact spot of your presentation where you have the least clue about.

But why dream so far, I have my reporting to do before that.I am wondering what questions will be posed by manager and whether I can convince him of my work.Let me play the waiting game.I will send him a mail detailing my activities as a prologue and then await the repercussions.

I will be back to talk about my nice and smooth(touch wood) ongoings at the review and also how my work(across the last two months) is finally done.

Wednesday, 6 August 2008

New Arrival

Last night we had a new addition to the family.A new cute little baby cousin.

My aunt Vidhu gave birth to her second daughter at 00:22 hrs on 4th August.I cant wait to hold this pretty bundle and feel those petal-soft baby skin.Two more weeks and then I will be Chennai with my dear cousin.

Tuesday, 5 August 2008

Memories Continued

Continued from my last post...

OMG,I almost forgot the Inter-House rivalry.I used to be such a patriotic ( a trait I rarely exhibit) Tagore-an always rooting for my house in sports as well as other events.Since I am just a commenting-from-couch sports person, I regularly represented my house in Quiz,Essay-Writing and Oratorical.Quizzing WAS my forte.I am quite out of touch with it after moving into college.

I guess I did write pretty decently but my works tended to be more on a serious note.And in Oratorical how ever much anyone did their best nobody could beat my classmate Shruthilaya.Her speeches used to be such power-packed energy boosters.

The crux of the inter-house rivalry was the Group Singing and Group Dance.Practice sessions on these excuses were most welcome by students and teachers.Group dance always meant some team getting eliminated for breaking rules with their songs and costumes.Seniors(the tall lanky 12th std batch) used to walk around intimidating the juniors and putting on an ego show.Group singing was solely Indira House's property.During the course of my five years in Main School I don't remember them ever losing it.

Adding to this competitions were the class assemblies,one for every term.Being an enthusiast in volunteerism ( As my friend Qube calls me All-in-All ) I used to show up quite often on the quadrangle for news-updates.My enthusiasm used to carry over to my speech that was laden with superlatives and news tidbits from BBC to Sun.The phrase that I remember so well is "Now for a look at the sky" as a prologue to the weather news.I used to have a reputation for long ( of course enlightening) speeches.

If not present among the presentation part of the assembly I used to be in the defaulters area.Forever I used to be pulled out for missing ribbons,dirty-brownish-white shoes.Divya Ma'am,my French guru supposed I was one among the prefects after catching me there every day.

This somewhere-between-good-and-bad behavior of mine started from ninth standard.I was elected as my class leader by some good-natured souls who thought it a solution from having a goody-goody watch over them.True to their hopes,I left the class on their own but somehow we did not get into much trouble.(Minus than Leena Ma'am slapping Shriram incident)

At the end of ninth we wasted one whole month on the pretext of History exhibition where thanks to my team-mates(Murali,Mani,Jayanth,Vicky and Ajay) we managed to do some sort of Stonehenge replica.Though it was not quite great it was enough for us to escape Shanthalakshmi's wrath.

It was during this time we went as a school excursion to Mahabalipuram, a trip none of us can still forget.Sometime soon I will post snaps of that time when I was such a spoilt-irritating tomboy (I guess I still am).We also organised a thanks-giving session for our teachers on Sept 5th and tried honouring them with mementos and speeches.

By large,ninth standard was such a beautiful and exciting year for the whole class.Then presto we moved on to the all-important tenth standard.A dinghy classroom with such complicated seating facing the road.After numerous complaints from our lot Lakshmi Ma'am decided to do something and made us all co-operate and adjust.Under the pretext of free-hour my trio of friends used to run off to library and gaze on torn and mis-used(wonder who was responsible for the same) Sportstar.After every visit of ours library would be missing quite a few books thanks to our super-thieving abilities.

Due mention must be made of Balaguru our Art-Deivam!! His butler English and love for art made him the comical inspiration for MB and Rajesh.Even Combu with her enlightening Chemistry equations would invoke peals of laughter.Jusssst and her Geography,Shanthu and her hisssstory,UPK and economics and above all Chitti and Civics made the last year at JV inexplicable fun.

Aarthi,Janani and me will never forget the thagara-dappa canteen,racing back home,lunches-on-the-road,ridiculous,Swaraj Dweep...Small small incidents that make such memories worth reminiscing.

I miss those days when all of us were so innocent more likely unassuming and enjoyed days doing nothing but having fun and trying to grow up.


Tuesday, 29 July 2008

Memories

As I read Rajesh's blog,I was flooded by memories of me growing over the years. Starting from KG to Main School, the unending bouts of laughter.Days at JV were always fun.Right from KG I was blessed with two wonderful Latha and Kameswari.Kudos to them for tolerating all the mischief ( From those days I have a reputation for getting into trouble ) I forever used to be caught outside classroom playing or disturbing others in my own class.

And then moving onto primary where I was among the goody-goody ones in class (Till Second) My notes used to cited as examples for others lesser blessed souls.Then came the transformation, I decided to leave all goodness and evolved into a poriki.Witness and help to this transformation were Sathish,Siddharth,Kanakadhara,Karthikeyan,Sivabalan,Nikhil.

From then onwards I was one among the renowned (for all wrong reasons) ones in class.We used to have Nagasundari Ma'am for Social in fourth.She used to make all her classes so lively and interesting.I realised the difficulty in handling a class successfully only when I reached Main School and got exposed to teachers who guaranteed instant sleep in ten minutes.And I also would not forget Jayanthi Ma'am who believed my talents were in the field of Maths.She convinced my parents that I would excel at it.I remember once she also suggested that I would make a good critic.Up to date I have no clue what might have prompted her to such a decision.Thanks to me and my bunch of friends(those eye-openers I ve mentioned above) we managed to get our class a pretty bad name.

Till this point in my life my language capabilities revolved solely on English and Tamil.I was also into Hindi but my talents in it were pretty useless.I still cant get the hang of it.Though I find it quite sufficient for RGV,KJ and MR movies.Out of blue they announced we could opt for French from sixth standard.Caught unawares I declared that I had a fascination for it(One of dreams still revolves around being a linguist). Surprised by this revelation my parents enquired about the future implications of switching over from Tamil to French and decided in my favor.

Here was I standing in the quadrangle of Main School getting sorted in the various sections based on language.Most of mates were continuing with Tamil and I got to be among the blessed few of 6D.New campus,new people,new teachers.All of sudden I realised I had to grow up.In quick time,I learned about groupism,racism, and my vocabulary also improved in double quick time.Tamil may not be my language of learning but I learnt so many synonyms for day to day words.

Keeping in pace with requirements,I grew up.Of course with quite a lot of hindrances.I fought,I cried,I failed,I won and I learnt.I think it was Britannia they used to sponsor these badges called Star Champs for the best students in every class.When I happened to receive one of them I was quite surprised.Well guess I had managed to strike a balance between academics and fun.I used to enjoy most classes from a corner fighting for some reason or the other with Sathish and Giridara.In fact I used to do more of the fighting and they always played victims. ;-)

And this new French learning did not do me a world of good.My marks dropped.Contrary to my parents calculations I was faring pretty badly in it.
I moved on to seventh learning a lot about world,people and the masks the tend to wear.I met one among the few teachers I respect Kanchana Ma'am.She used to handle Social for us.Her words and opinions have made me think and understand things happening around a lot.Hers was among the few classes were I was on my well behaved and actually listening.Others sitting around me could enjoy bliss and peace then.Later in seventh,I met the teacher I most adore and love and revere,Divya Ma'am.Almost everybody in my class still holds her in high esteem.When she first entered class I thought she was a parent and could not accept the fact that she would be handling French.Under her I overgrew mu superficial love for French and actually started liking it.I used to compete with Giri to finish the exercises the day she took the lesson.Childish though it seems,I ended up putting my effort more and more into the subject and it reflected on my marks.

To be continued!!!

Saturday, 12 July 2008

Another one!!

So here I am hooked onto the idea of blogging and sharing. I finally decided to keep technology away from this blog and moved it onto Strictly Technology.

As of now I have posted on concept phones since I seem to be reading a lot about them on the net everyday. I am still wondering whether I should diverge into talking about software there. And most hopefully I will.

Even at the end of all this my Saturday time at office is not yet done. Most colleagues have already left for lunch.I have still loads to do before I can call it quits.

My initial plans were to come in early (as in around 9) and leave for the dog show.Not to my surprise, I slept on till 10 only to catch all my room-mates wide awake and prepared for a weekend out.With loads of hesitation,I managed to drag myself to office.

On second thoughts, I think I will carry over this work to Monday.I just now got reminded that a visit to the bank is pending(Good thing my mom called up otherwise next week would have been filled with self-cooked meals!!). Now I also remember I have a report to prepare for my college guide. It has been due since last week and it would be better to do it soon.

So off I go to catch up on my tasks...

Dog show bangalore


Dear owners of dogs,

Here is a golden chance to celebrate your dog ,and and appreciate
their companionship.Doggies Day out-2 (Dog show)is scheduled on
12th of July 2008 Bangalore open for all breeds including the
Indian breeds,so come join with us to continue the celebration of
laughter and loyalty.

Venue:Sullivan Grounds

Contact for more details on venue and entry
santosh2413@gmail.com.


Friday, 11 July 2008

Service Oriented Architecture

Service-Oriented Architecture (SOA) is an style of IT architecture that transforms your business into a set of connected services that can be accessed when needed over a network. This may be a local network or the Internet.

In simpler terms combining services in New York, London, and Hong Kong as though they were all installed on your local desktop. These services can combine to accomplish a specific business task, enabling your business to quickly adapt to changing conditions and requirements of your users.

The aim is a loose coupling of services with operating systems, programming languages and other technologies which underlie applications.SOA concepts are often seen as built upon, and evolving from older concepts of distributed computing and modular programming.

In order to efficiently use an SOA, one must meet the following requirements:

  • Interoperability between different systems and programming languages provides the basis for integration between applications on different platforms through a communication protocol
  • Create a warehouse of resources.
Services
To clearly understand SOA first you have to understand service. A service is a function that is well-defined, self-contained, and does not depend on the context or state of other services.

The technology of Web Services is most likely to be used as connection technology.


For books on SOA,

Thursday, 10 July 2008

21 Laws of Computer Programming

As any experienced computer programmer knows, there are unwritten laws that govern software development. However there are no penalties for breaking these laws; rather, there is often a reward. Following are 21 Laws of Computer Programming:

  1. Any given program, once deployed, is already obsolete.
  2. It is easier to change the specification to fit the program than vice versa.
  3. If a program is useful, it will have to be changed.
  4. If a program is useless, it will have to be documented.
  5. Only ten percent of the code in any given program will ever execute.
  6. Software expands to consume all available resources.
  7. Any non-trivial program contains at least one error.
  8. The probability of a flawless demo is inversely proportional to the number of people watching, raised to the power of the amount of money involved.
  9. Not until a program has been in production for at least six months will its most harmful error be discovered.
  10. Undetectable errors are infinite in variety, in contrast to detectable errors, which by definition are limited.
  11. The effort required to correct an error increases exponentially with time.
  12. Program complexity grows until it exceeds the capabilities of the programmer who must maintain it.
  13. Any code of your own that you haven't looked at in months might as well have been written by someone else.
  14. Inside every small program is a large program struggling to get out.
  15. The sooner you start coding a program, the longer it will take.
  16. A carelessly planned project takes three times longer to complete than expected; a carefully planned project takes only twice as long.
  17. Adding programmers to a late project makes it later.
  18. A program is never less than 90% complete, and never more than 95% complete.
  19. If you automate a mess, you get an automated mess.
  20. Build a program that even a fool can use, and only a fool will want to use it.
  21. Users truly don't know what they want in a program until they use it.
[Received in an email]

Tuesday, 8 July 2008

My favorites!!

Some of the quotes I love, adore and believe in
  • It's better to do something and then regret it than regret not doing it.
  • Real success is finding your lifework in the work that you love
  • If you can't be a good example, then you'll just have to be a horrible warning.
  • You can't expect to win unless you know why you lose.
  • Do not let what you cannot do interfere with what you can do.
  • I believe in God,only I spell it Nature
  • It does not matter how many years you add to your life,It matters how you add life to your years.
  • Trouble is only opportunity in work clothes.
  • Painting is silent poetry and poetry is painting with the gift of speech.
  • Men are not prisoners of fate but only of their own minds.
  • If you are not criticized you may not be doing much.
  • You see things and say "Why?" But I dream things that never were and I say "Why not?"
  • Experience is not what happens to a man,It is what a man does with what happens to him.

Introduction: First Blog Entry

Hello World!!! Honestly speaking this is not my first attempt at blogging.I have been here before with a couple of posts on some things that interested me. Here is my second attempt at blogging. I was inspired to write this blog looking at my friend Rajesh sincere attempts and interesting posts.

So what will this blog be about? I have no idea myself. I am just going to go with the flow. All said and done I am planning to hopefully write about everything I come across on a day-to-day basis and wish to share.So all that comes to my mind will be down here.Considering my extreme interests that would include nature, politics, animals, food, languages, software development, music, tennis, painting, books, poetry, traveling, history, cooking, gardening and lots more..

And speaking about myself... I am a maverick bent on learning by experience than through others' advice. On second thoughts,I am quite a rational thinker most of the times.I have my own rules and limits.Zodicially(Is there a word like that!!) I am a Piscesean and true to that I am a dreamer drowned in my own make-believe world.I am deeply attached to my friends though at times I prefer solitude.Most people associate me with the word chatter-box so that should pretty much explain how unpredictable I can get.Speaking of unpredictability, I hate routines and rules.If something is forbidden that is what is my calling ;-)

I am currently doing a six month internship as a part of my college curriculum in Bangalore and still have 2 years to go before I graduate.

So please stay tuned.Leave comments about my current scribbles and doodles.